Mom and Dad.
Mom and dad, you know more than I ever will, but at the moment when I was twelve, I didn’t think that you knew anything,
You didn’t know anything, other than how to be my mom and dad.
You didn’t have a life before all of this, you were too busy getting ready to be my mom and dad, at least that was what I thought when I was twelve.
Who knew that it would have turned out like this?
The dreams that you had for me.
The dreams that you had for yourselves.
The dreams that I had for myself, but you knew more than I could ever learn.
Each of you now is little more than a box of dried sticks.
The two of you were far wiser than what I was willing to admit to,
Even now, there are things that I should have said or done to try and make you proud.
Marching through these days and nights.
Believing in my heart that neither one of you is really dead, but you have just gone away.
That the two of you managed to live.
That you all have the answers now.
Trying to keep up with it all.
Will I ever be happy or be happy again.
I find myself wishing that all of this was a mistake.
I sometimes find myself wishing that I had never been born.
Scratching words across pieces of dead trees.
Trying to throw me into something, anything that would help me forget.
Waiting for something that I know that I will never find.
Looking forward to the resurrection, and the life of the world to come.
Thursday, February 18, 2021
trying to be brief
in a world filled with words
and knowing that I may never get to say
all of the things that I need
or may want to say
the world still turns
the rain still falls
and we are left wondering what will become
of the lost
and the losers
what will become of those
who are still looking for love
in the latter years of there lives.
sometimes, the best thing to say is nothing, at other times the best thing to do is to keep it brief. at other times, it is hard to know what to do. so it goes. press on regardless.
Wednesday, February 17, 2021
living through days filled with wishful thinking
searching for a love that I know that I will never find
but I keep on looking for that certain someone
to reach for in the night
knowing that it will come true
trying to make the best of a situation that is not bad, but is not the way that I would have planned my life. all that I can do right now is just take one day at a time just like everyone else. There are those who seem to live somewhere else other than just where they are at. assuming that makes any sense. so it goes. press on regardless.
Thursday, February 4, 2021
keep it simple
keep it under control
keep it the way that it should be
and a happy heart will follow.
Sometimes it is all good. Sometimes it is all bad. Sometimes it happens all at once, and the only thing that I can and do is just breathe, and get through the rest of the day, which can be the best victory of all. So it goes, Press on regardless.
Thursday, January 7, 2021
we know what we want to know
believe what we want to believe
hear what we want to hear
regardless of what the truth is