I am just wondering now, as I often do, why it is that I do what I do, and dream what it is that I dream. Wishing that all of this will finally come true for someone like me, but it just seems that it is just one of those things that just might never come true, and at some level, I know that all of the things that I want to get accomplished with whatever time that God, in His wisdom will see fit to give me, or that if I even get close to all of the things that I would like to be able to do, it will never come close to all of the things that I thought that it would be, but still, after all is said and done, it keeps me from thinking about what it is that I have to do every day just to try and keep body and soul together for one mor hour, one more day.
As much as I may hate it, I still have to get up and get out and just keep grinding all of this out, day after day, whatever it is that I am doing, in the hope that one of these days it will all be worth the effort. Though there are times when I really do wonder. It all just comes and goes and the only thing that I can do is just try and find a way to just make it all happen, but there are just some things that are simply out of my control. The difference is just knowing the difference between what we can control and what we cannot, and that can take a lifetime to try and figure out.
It’s all good. So it goes. Press on regardless.