​Friday, July 31, 2020
in the never-ending search
for the right combination
of words
the search never seems to end
though there have been times
when I thought that I was close
but it turned out
that I have become that much
further behind.
it is still good.

good morning,
update on how I am feeling. I'm getting better, but still, find myself getting a little winded, especially after I find myself going out for a walk. trying to go a little further every time, but sometimes I think that I am simply trying to do too much too soon. I keep forgetting that I am not 25 years old anymore and I don't heal as fast as I did then, though,with COPD, there are times I fear that this just might be just about as good as I will get. I hope not. I pray that is not the case. It is all in God's hands. I pray that you are well and that I will be hearing from you soon.
so it goes. press on regardless.

faithfully yours,
Lee

good morning,

I keep forgetting that I cannot do all that I need to be doing when I want to be doing it. of course I am not twenty-five years old either, so the only thing that I can be doing right now is what I can do when I can do it. at the same time, I find myself growing impatient and want it all done yesterday. I wonder why that is? 

​Good morning,
as some of you may or may bot know, I was in the hospital for eight days. if you go to my Facebook page, it will give you a little more background as to what happened to me, though I am still speeding it all together now that I have been home. all that I am sure of was that I was pretty sick, though I was not, or at least that I can remember or that I have otherwise been able to find out, was not walking toward the light.
I still have a way to go, and I am not sure of how all of this will end but will ask you to keep me in your prayers. The first concern right now is getting my disability squared away. That is the first thing that I need to be worried about right now. the sooner it is settled the better that I will feel.

So it goes. Press on regardless.

Faithfully Yours,

Lee

good morning,    
its all good when the best thing that I can do is say good night an pray that what I will be on its way to improvement. its all good.
So it goes. Press on regardless.
 
Faithfully Yours,
 
Lee

 dawn Patrol,
looking at all of the words that I know, and Still cannot figure out what it is that I want to say. what's up with that.
So it goes. Press on regardless.
 
Faithfully Yours,
 
Lee

Friday, May 29. 2020
the world turns
as it always does
people laugh
as they always do
and the world still turns
as it always does
people cry
and the world still turns
as it always does.
hours, days, years
and he world still turns
as it always does.
hours, days, years, pass
as they always will
birth death war peace
all cycle through
as they always do
and the world still turns
as it always does.
So it goes. Press on regardless.
 
www.silentscreamsandothermusings.com

Good morning.
As with everything else in life, sometimes life is good, sometimes life is not good. sometimes you just slip between the cracks.
So it goes. Press on regardless.
 
Faithfully Yours,
 
Lee

good morning,
 
in a few hours I will be entering a vacation week. please pray that I will find some rest, I have been battling insomnia. it is all good because God is still in control.
 
So it goes. Press on regardless.
 
Faithfully Yours,
 
Lee

Friday, May 8, 2020
 
sometimes
the best thing that I can do at night
is simply try to get some sleep
and let tomorrow
worry about itself

Good morning,
 
There are those nights, when one must submit to the most visceral things life. Like eating and sleeping in a bed. sometimes it just so difficult to break away, but I will try. I hope that you are well and that I will be hearing from you soon. It is always good.
 
So it goes. Press on regardless.
 
Faithfully Yours,
 
Lee
 
www.silentscreamsandothermusings.com

Friday May 1, 2020
 
life begins
when we are willing 
to give ourselves over to it
and let it take us where it will
love will soon follow

good morning,
 
there are times, actually more than what I am willing to admit to, that I find myself needing to manage my time better. I think that we all need to be managing our timer better, but I really do need to start managing my time better. it seems that the older that I get, the faster that it all seems to be slipping away and that is not a good thing when you know that there are more years behind you than ahead of you, not that I am planning on going anywhere any time soon, but one never seems to know about these things.
of course saying that I need to be managing my time better and actually managing my time better is often two different things.
I wonder why that is?
In the meantime, I wonder why that is? Well there are some questions that may never get answered.
 
So it goes. Press on regardless.
 
Faithfully Yours,
 
Lee

Friday, April 24, 2020
 
love 
hope 
faith 
charity
all of the better angels 
of our nature
sometimes shine through

good morning,
 
sometimes, the only thing that any of us can do is simply find what we love and let it consume us. very few people that I have met during the course of my life have let there passion consume them. they simply settle for what they have been given and settle for the rest. that is not always a bad thing because we all need to work, to do things that we may not always like, but there are times when just being alive and just getting by is simply not enough. that we all simply have to reach for something beyond what seems to be the ordinary to the extraordinary. we sometimes just need to let ourselves be great, even if no one else can see it
 
So it goes. Press on regardless.
 
Faithfully Yours,
 
Lee

good morning,

right now I am just finding it very difficult to get motivated to try and write. part of the reason being that I did not sleep that well last night and with all of the things that are going on in the world right at the moment, it is a wonder that I am sleeping at all. why is it that my life is not turning out the way that I had it planned. I suppose that it could be worse, I could not have any plans at all, and that would be a bad thing.

So it goes. Press on regardless.

Faithfully Yours,

Lee

Friday, April 10, 2020

our days come and go
as they always have
and probably always will
knowing that God is still in control
but I have found myself praying
more than once
God
you know all things 
you control all things
but can we move this along a little
I think that God honors our doubts
and our honesty

good morning,

Trying to simply make the best of a bad situation, but right now it simply isn't working out that way. It seems that the bad situation is getting worse with this whole coronavirus thing is just making people more than just a little edgy, as if people weren't edgy enough, but it just seems to be getting worse. or am I now just starting to notice it. Maybe it is a little bit of both.

So it goes. Press on regardless.

Faithfully Yours,

Lee

Friday, April 3, 2020

Laughing at myself for being so stupid
thinking that I could find something good to believe in.
looking to believe in something new
goodbye to all of that
to the life that I thought that I knew
wishing to find something new to believe in other than myself
my heart can never really except the truth
will I ever really be true to myself?
there never really seems to be anything new
in the common verity of new
in the way that life looks at us.
consider all of the things that life can give us
it gives us what it is that we really need.

what are the things that we really need in life
heart 
soul
the best time of my life
wishing to be something that I know that I will never reach
looking for justice and mercy but finding none
a simple life while trying to make the best of it 
in the worst of times
knowing that someday I will be able to make come true
all of the desires of my heart

good morning,

right now, all is good, but there is always room for improvement, but the only thing that I am going to be able to do right now is simply hope for the best because after all is said and done we take what it is that we have been given and pray for the rest. what else is there left to do?

So it goes. Press on regardless.

Faithfully Yours,

Lee

for Billy G,

it's funny
when I think of you now
it's a Saturday morning
and we are wondering
what it is that we are
going to do with ourselves
it's funny
when  I think of you now
we're eighteen
young and strong
ready to take on the world
it's funny
when I think of you now
or what is left of you
which is a little more 
then a box of dried sticks
but you have all of the answers now
and I envy you for that.

good morning,

feeling nostalgic once again. it is the same old thing. the years have slipped away, much too quickly.

Faithfully Yours,

Lee

www.silentscreamsandothermusings.com 

Good Morning,

Even with this whole corona virus thing, the only thing that I can hope to do is to not let my emotions get the better of me, not that I would know anything about my emotions getting the better of me. The rest of it is all good because God is still in control and nothing ever changes that. I hope that you are well and that I will be hearing from you soon.

So it goes. Press on regardless.

Faithfully Yours,

Lee

Friday, March 13, 2020    

there have been times
even in my own life
when things seem to 
be getting out of 
control
and that I have forgotten 
the most important thing
of all
and that is to simply stop
and pray about the whole thing
prayer 
what a concept