and wonder what would have happened to me,
if I had stayed on that track of self deception
thinking that I could be doing something more
but there are some things that are simply out of our control
and God often takes us where it is that He wants us to be
not where we think that we should be going.
i want to laugh at myself now,
even as a child,
i thought that i could find myself living beyond who i was
and thought that i could be something else
someone other then who i think that i am
now it just seems that the only thing left to do is to pray some more
so it goes.
press on regardless