I did scare myself in that i did have what I will call a vision, but that is not really the word that I am looking for, but it is going to have to do, at least for right now.
I found myself 'looking' into my future and seeing myself as an old man, who had out lived his family, his friends, his usefulness. that I will end up being the old man that you see shuffling through the market, living on peanut butter sandwiches and chicken soup.
don't ask me where that came from, but it was something that upset me, and that it took me a couple of hours to shake it, and that it was something that i had thought about more then once before, but I was just able to throw it off without to much thought. this time, it was something that really throw me, and i almost want to say that it scared me, but it sure did have me think there for a few minutes.
well the only thing that I can say right now it is strange the way that the human mind works, or the way that my mind works, or doesn't seem to be working at times. what else can i say.
so it goes. press on regardless.