There are times, like now, when I have to keep reminding myself, that I am not twenty five years old anymore, and that I cannot always do what it is that I was doing when I was twenty five, but what can I do? there are times, when the only thing that I can do right now is just keep on writing, in the hope that it will all work itself out.
I keep doing this in the vain hope that some day soon, the right person will be reading all of this, and that all of it will have been worth the effort. sure, it is a thousand to one shot, but a thousand to one shot is better then zero.
in the end, this just might be just about as good as it gets, but one simply doesn't know about these things. there are just some things that are out of our control. all that I can do right now is just hope that one of these days, I will be able to figure out a way to start making money at all of this.
it is a shame really, but it all comes down to the money. even if it wasn't just the money, it would still be something that I would do, simply because it has become part of what I do, what I need to do, if for no other reason then simply just to be heard.
now is what I am saying something that people will want to hear, well it must be if there are people who keep coming back and reading all of this. it is to bad that I am not getting paid by the word. well it is all just what it is and nothing more.
so it goes. press on regardless.