the dawn patrol

so far this morning it is all good, and it looks like it is going to get better by the minute. all that I hope for right now is that some day I will find myself believing that, and that it will finally all come true. all of it being what it is that I have been chasing after all of these years.

all that I am sure of right now is that one of these days there will be something good that will come out of all of this writing that I have been doing. I would really hate to think that all of this is going to get wasted.

at least with my emails, that is why I am keeping three or four copies of them, plus what I have been sending. not that what I am saying is all that profound,and needs to be preserved, it is just something that I have had to learn the hard way, that if it is worth writing, it is worth saving, and I am going to have to try and do what I can to save it all. 

I have lost way to much to the ether, simply because i was not more careful with what it was that I was doing. now I think that I am going the other way and being overly cautious. well it is better to be overly cautious, then to be wishing that I wasn't.

I have had that sinking feeling of knowing that I have just lost things that I know that I cannot replace. I guess redundancy is the key to all of this.

 I pray that things are going well and that they are getting better all of the time.