be that as it may, the only thing that I am sure of right now, as a person at least, I have found that I have grown, hopefully for the better, but it ha all been a very slow process. knowing that their is a long way for me to go as a person and a s a writer. also as a person of faith.
it is all good though, and the only thing that I can do right is just hope that one of these days it will all have been worth the effort. in the meantime, it is all in God's hands.
so it goes. press on regardless.