the more that I learn,
the more that I realize that I do not know.
the more that I need to learn,
and around and around it goes.
it is always the same thing forever.

so it goes.
press on rergardless.

sometimes I fool myself into thinking,
that all of this is the best stuff ever written.
if that is the case,
then why am I not earning my crust of bread at this.
well it is what it is.
so it goes.
press on regardless.

it's all good,
or at least that is what I am letting myself believe.
that there have been times,
when the road never seems to end,
and that the best that I can hope for,
is one last chance a greatness,
or at least the chance to be content.

some days are good,
some days are not so good.
some moments are better then others.
it is just a case of finding our passion and running with it.
the rest of it is background music.

good morning everyone,

well it looks like another day, or at least a few hours at the keyboard, trying to make sense of this thing that we are calling life. the one thing that I am sure of right now is, that the more that I learn, the more that I am sure that I do not know.

knowing that I do not know is the beginning of some sort of wisdom. the best is yet to come I am sure, but it is just a question of when, and how it is that I am going to make all of that happen. well there are worse things in life I am sure.

I just keep on doing all of the things that I am doing, and pray that it will all finally come together, and that I will be in the position that I have been writing about, and that is to be able to do all of this full time. well it is nice to be able to think that, but thinking it, and being able to do it, are two different things.

well it is all just what it is and nothing more.

I pray that all of you are well and that I will be hearing from you soon.  email me your comments at
redbanklee@aol.com
remember to put blog comments in the subject line.

so it goes. press on regardless.

yours,

lee

time and time again,
we all reach for something that will give it all meaning,
that it will give us something to live for,
other then for the moment,
the day,
the year,
whatever it is that we are looking forward to,
or looking back at.
it never really changes,
this search for meaning,
only the packaging has changed.

the moon showing itself through my window,
as it slowly makes its way across the sea of the night.
knowing all to well,
that this to will end,
and that the dawn of a new day,
will bring with it,
a new challenge,
a new hope,
and another chance at redemption.

good morning everyone,

well it is all good so far today, but there are times when I feel that all of this will end, and that I will be back where I started from. that after all is said and done, one of the few things that I have in my life right now, that I can hold onto, is my dreams. my dreams of being able to do all of this full time. at this point, it just seems that the road goes on forever.

that the road, no matter how long, has an end. that my dreams of being a full time writer and blogger, are just what I have to keep me going.

we all need to find our dreams, our passion, or life's work. it is still true. find what you love and stick with it, and you will never work a day in your life.

so it goes. press on regardless.

yours,

lee

at this time of the morning,
as I think about what I should be writing next,
there is some obscure Russian composer coming from my radio,
as a dial back and forth between the classics,
and classic jazz.
not knowing the difference sometimes,
but it is far better then some of the other garbage that I hear,
that is passing for music these days.

fresh coffee,
cigarettes,
and the dream.
the beginning of it all,
one day at a time.
wishful thinking can always be a problem,
when it comes face to face with the every day.
knowing nothing else to be true,
but time,
and that always seems to be slip[ping away.

good morning everyone,

at this point, what is it that a writer like me really needs, except a full pot of coffee, and a fresh pack of cigarettes  and the dream that this will be the day that this will finally break open for me. that I will finally be able to say that I am going viral, and that those of you who have been with me since the beginning, will be able to say that this was something that he was always talking about.

that he said that he was going to do it, and with your help, it will be something that will finally happen. in the meantime, it is just another case of grinding all of this out, and that it will be one post at a time, one view at a time, in the hope that it will finally come true.

the next trick will be how am I going to start making money at all of this, that is the next question, but one question at a time. it is all good.

so it goes. press on regardless.

yours,

lee

there is always,
to much,
to little,
or not enough time,
love,
experience.
laughter,
caution,
wonder,
knowledge,
wisdom,
understanding.
if we take time to count the cost,
we would get nothing done.
sometimes we just do what it is that we need to do.

good morning everyone,

so far this morning, it is all good, or at least that is what I am letting myself believe at this point. of course it is all subject to change without notice. so the only thing that I can do right now is to just keep on writing, in the hope that one of these days, I will get myself heard above all of the other noise on the internet right now.

this too, is something that I am letting myself believe right now. what else can I do? all that I am sure of right now is that I just need to keep on writing, in the hope that it is all good.

so it goes. press on regardless.

yours,

lee

I get knocked down,
I get back up.
I get knocked down,
I get back up.
around and around it goes.
but with coffee in my cup,
a full pack of smokes,
and jazz on my radio,
it doesn't get any better,
at least for now.
sometimes,
life is good.

the never ending stream of coffee and cigarettes.
this is the best time of my life?
keeping all of these odd hours,
sitting at my keyboard,
typing my fingers raw,
looking for that right combination of words,
that will finally raise me up above this sea of noise.
putting everything else off,
for the sake of my art.
no more money,
no more time,
just the here and now,
and that can be frightening enough.

good morning everyone,

right now, it is just a case of to much coffee, to many cigarettes. to many dreams, and not enough time or money to pursue them all. so I do the best that I can, in the hope that I will be able to make it all happen. that out of this jumble of words, there will be something good to come from all of this. at least that is what I am letting myself believe.

at least I am trying to make it happen, instead of just thinking about it all, which is more then some people are doing I am sure, and there are worse things that I could be doing with my time and with my money, but that is another story for another time.

right now I just have to keep all of this going, in the hope that some day soon, this will be read by the right person at the right time, and then all of this will have been worth the effort that I have been putting into it. in the meantime, we shall see what we shall see.

I pray that all of you are well, and that you are doing what you need to do to keep your dreams alive. the world needs more lovers, more writers, more beauty and truth, but it all doesn't work out that way, it just is what it is and nothing more.

so it goes. press on regardless.

yours,

lee

things are the way that they are,
simply because there is no other way,
at least the way that things need to be,
the way that they ought to be,
the way that we need to dream them into being.
in the meantime,
there are just some things that cannot be changed,
no matter how much that we want them to change.
wisdom comes in,
when we are able to know the difference.

good morning everyone,

there are times, when the only thing that I can do, that the only thing that I can hope for will be that there will be a time when I will have all of the things that I need to be able to do all of this full time. the one thing that I need more then anything right now, to make all of that come true, will be money, lots of money, and I am not sure of how all of that is going to happen. I have not heard of money falling from the sky lately, so there goes that idea.

so the only thing that I can do right now is just dream about it all. dream and hope that one of these days it will all come true. my thoughts, my dreams, my ideas are the only thing that seems to keep me moving at this point. they are one of the few things in my life that gives it any sort of meaning at all.

so now that I have gotten all of that out of the way, it just seems to me that the American system of government is far from the way that the founding fathers had it planned, or had hoped that it would have worked.  at the same time though, I think that they would be some what pleased, that we have lasted this long, but are far from being where I think that we should be.

there are a lot of people, myself included, that seem to think that the system is needing to be fixed, or at least a major over haul, but with the clowns that are in Washington D.C., I don't see that happening any time soon. over all, it is still the only game in town.

so it goes. press on regardless.

yours,

lee

here I am again,
finding myself in the middle of another round of wishful thinking.
knowing all to well,
that after all is said and done,
that this just might be just about as good as it gets.
knowing all to well,
that the truth of my life is out there,
somewhere,
waiting for me to find it.

given enough time and money,
I will be able to find it all.

it is 1.18 am
and the rest of the world seems to be fast asleep.
wondering why it is that I am doing what it is that I am doing,
thinking what it is that I am thinking.
writing what it is that I am writing.
knowing,
that some day,
it will all make sense.
until then,
it is what it is and nothing more.

good morning everyone,

the never ending search for the right combination of words, never really seems to end, or to begin. that the only thing that I a going to be able to do right now, is to just keep on writing, in the hope that one of these days, all of this will finally come together, and that I will be in a position to where I can do all of this full time.

of course it is nice to dream, and that one of these days, all of the things that I have ever dreamt about doing will finally come true. whether they come true or not, the only thing that I can do is to just keep on writing, whatever my writing may be called.

in the meantime, all that I know is that there are times, when all that I can do is just write, in the hope that one of these days, all of this will be read by the right person, and that I will finally be on my way to leading the literary life. I he meantime, all that I can do is just keep grinding all of this out, in the hope that one of these days, it will all have been worth the effort that I have put into this.

in the meantime, it is all good. I pray that all of you are doing well and that you are telling all of your friends about my blog, and that one day, all of this will end up going viral. I like to believe that it will, but there are times when I think that I should be happy doing all of the things that I am doing with this, and that it is being read at all.

what else can I do.? it is still true, that this is one of the few things in my life that I have been told that I was ever any good at. even with that in mind, there are times when I have my doubts about that, I will leave that for all of you to decide.

so it goes. press on regardless.

yours,

lee

wisdom,
who can know it?
who can understand,
or posses it?
what seems to make sense,
quickly disappears into the ether,
and we await for something new to come along.
another wave of enlightenment.
the next great awakening.
a revival.
sometimes,
there are things,
that are simply out of our hands.

like it or not,
there are some things that are just out of our control.
the trick is,
to know what we can control,
and what we can't.
it could take a life time to try and figure that out.

some days it is good,
some days it is bad,
some days it is nothing at all.
it is just what it is,
and nothing more.
so it goes.
press on regardless.

good morning everyone,

there are times, when there are just things that seem to be out of our control. right now, it just seems that my life, is not out of control, but there are just times when I feel that I am not where I would like to be. yet I don't know of anyone who is where they would like to be.

well this is life, at least at the moment, and it doesn't seem to be getting any better. it doesn't mean that it is getting any worse, but it doesn't mean that it is getting any better.

the days come and go, as they always do, and there is nothing that we can do about that. just due to the fact, that there maybe times when we would like to slow down the passage of time, or to stop it all together, I don't think that it works that way.

time just keeps going the way that it is going, and that after all is said and done, the best that I can do is just get use to the idea, that there will come a time, when I will run out of time, and it will be what it is and nothing more. not that I am in any great hurry to get anywhere, but it is just what it is and nothing more.

well we shall see what we shall see. so it goes. press on regardless,

yours,

lee