Hello Everyone,

Well this is just a little bit earlier the what some of you may be use to receiving this email from me, but it was a rough night last night, and a long day at the circus. An early start tomorrow, but I wanted to get something out there in the hope that it will meet with your approval. 

In the meantime, I pray that all of you are well, and that I will be hearing from you all soon.

So it goes. Press on regardless.

Faithfully Yours,

Lee

​after all is said and one

Still,
after all is said and done
I hope that some day to find some happiness 
even joy
in all of the things that I have been trying to do
surely it will be time
knowing that all of this will end some day
and I will have nothing to show for all of this
but so much wasted time
hours
days
years
filled with nothing but dreams
having the time of my life in all of this
I had thought that it would have gotten better by now
reaching for all of these words
plucked from the ether as fast as I can grab them
having what I know what will be again
throwing words across the pages of my life, again
will I be happy with my life
If I had the chance to do it all again?

​Thursday, June 29, 2017

In all of the things that are going on in Washing ton with the Trump and the alleged connection with the Russians and the Clinton Emails and the DNC. What did Trump know, if he knew anything, and when did he know it.

Then there is the travel ban that is supposedly be going to be taking place, and that all of the things that are or are not connected to all of this, what does it all mean.

In the end, it all just seems to be the same thing to me, that who really controls who and when and why are they doing it.

Am I getting paranoid about the whole thing, I don’t think so, I just think that it is just business as usual, and after that being said, I think that it is just something that we are going to have to just deal with it, simply because unless that there is a fundamental change in the system, this is something that is going to continue regardless of who is in power.

Will that happen, not likely

​good morning everyone,


well I had just finished a day that I thought was never going to end. Well it did and I am here to talk about it.

it is all good.

yours, 

lee

The Dawn Patrol

Just enough to say that I am still alive and well and that I will finally be able to spend some time with this thing that I will be able to do some more writing tomorrow today or depending upon when you are reading this.

It is all good.

So it goes. Press on regardless.

Faithfully Yours,

Lee

​Thinking of Bukowski

thinking of Bukowski
    and what  more you could have done if he did not drink so much.
Yet that is probably is what made him so great,
but I do not know if I am ready to start drinking like that.
Yet I often wonder
will I leave that big on an impression
that someone
at some time in the future
will be thinking about me.

​Giving myself away through my words

    I often find myself trying to give myself away through my words,
    but wonder if there is anyone out there who is willing to have me,
knowing that there may be things that are so cryptic,
even I do not understand all of it myself,
but I still go on doing what it is that I am doing, 
or what it is that I am trying to say,
who will understand it all,
even when it seems that all just might be lost.

​Good Morning Everyone,

Well this is quickly turned into one of those days that the more I try to get motivated the less that I am actually getting done, of course, the weather is helping in either. I never did care for the summer, at least as far as the weather is concerned simply because once he gets over 75° I’m done. I don’t feel like doing anything, but I’m having the force myself right now to do something simply because I don’t want this turning into a totally wasted day. So the only thing I can do right now is just hope that after all is said and done, I get something done, that would have been worth the effort that I’m putting into it right now.

It’s on days like this that I wish that I could become nocturnal because much cooler at night for the most part that it is during the day, but then you get into the whole thing of being able to sleep, and sleep lately is one of those things that has become either hit or miss as far as I’m concerned.

Right now the lawn people are working on the yard next door in well that’s something to be expected at this time of year, but the point being that air-conditioning is a godsend, but is something that I can’t afford right now, and that I am going to have to look into getting a fan, because last year was probably one of the worst summers I’ve been through in a long time, of course not having any air-conditioning or even a fan, was not the way that I had it all planned.

I guess the only thing I can say right now is that I’m just doing what I do best and just grousing about the whole thing, but at this point in my life, it just seems that the harder that I try the further of getting behind whether it’s good or bad. And there are those that I know who wonder why play the lottery.  Sure the whole things 1 million the one shot at best, but those odds are better than zero, yet again, most things in life are million the one shot.

There are times in my life. I just gets so physically tired that I don’t want to do anything I can’t forget move but I have to force myself to do and to be and to try and understand why things are the way they are. Some things are the way they are, because that’s the way it is, and a getting hot in the summer time. Well that’s one of the things that just are, or is it just is.

The only thing I know right now is that one of these days it all work out I’ll be looking back on this part of my life and wondering what was so damned important, but when you’re living through it. It’s hard to think past that.

So here I am again, trying to fight the fight do all the things that I need to be doing just to survive, but surviving is just not the way that I had my life planned. There are times though when I wonder how fair it all is but, I guess fairness is in the eye of the beholder.

But to get back to what I was saying about my writing, I’m getting to the point now were, at least for today I wanted to get something done, so the day wasn’t a total waste. It’s just that this weather just knocks everything right out of me and it’s just a case of, the more that I try to do less of actually getting done.

Still comes down to the case where I’m going to have to start managing my time better. I know that there are things out there that will help me do that, it’s just a question of actually taking the time to find them in implementing in etc. etc.

As for as the whole thing in Washington is concerned. I’m really not surprised simply because it just strikes me as being business as usual, and a bit of sour grapes as well, because there are those who will insist to their dying day that Donald Trump stole the election and that he’s little more than just a fascist.

Well depending on your talking to her what it is you want to believe Donald Trump has or has not done a lot of things, but I don’t think having stolen the election is amongst them. I am not sure how that would work, stealing the election. I mean, because the system worked like it or not the way that it was designed to work and some people just can’t accept that. Not that I’m the world’s biggest Donald Trump supporter, but with Hillary Clinton being the other candidate this last election. What choice or choices did we have.

For me, at least I could have not voted, but not voting was not an option so here I am having cast my ballot and just waiting to see when or if the dust will settle.

So I think I will leave this here for the time being, because I will try and take a nap for an hour or so in the hope that I’ll feeling a little better, and that I’ll be able to get a little more done by that time the weather it cool down a little bit though there is a bit of a breeze which is helping the cause, but not by much.

In the meantime is about all. So it goes. More later.

Well the only thing that I can hope for right now is that it will be  a good night for sleeping, because it wasn’t all that good this afternoon when I tried laying down for a couple of hours. It just seemed to me that I am just spending way to much time worrying about something that is going to happen whether I like it or not.

Of course the weather, whether we want to admit to it or not, effects our lives more then we really think, but it is just something to talk about, not that there is something that we are going to be able to do about it all.

In the meantime though, the only thing that I can hope for is that one of these days there will be something good that will come out of all of these rambling’s, and that I will actually start getting paid for doing all of this.

Of course that would be nice, especially if I were getting paid by the word, but I do not see that happening any time soon. Though it is nice to think that it would. In the meantime, I hope that all of you are doing well and that I will be hearing from you soon.

So it goes. Press on regardless.

Faithfully Yours,

Lee

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​“I can shake off everything as I write; my sorrows disappear, my courage is reborn.” 

― Anne Frank

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​Good Morning All of You Hipsters,

Some guys dig ditches, I have a band. It’s what I do. ∞

Woody Herman

So it goes. Press on regardless.

Yours In The Spirit Of The Music,

Lee

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​“We have to continually be jumping off cliffs and developing our wings on the way down.” 

― Kurt Vonnegut Jr., If This Isn't Nice, What Is?: Advice for the Young

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​Good Morning All of You Caffeine Junkies,

Good communication is just as stimulating as black coffee, and just as hard to sleep after.

~Anne Morrow Lindbergh

So it goes. Press on regardless.

Yours In The Spirit Of The Bean,

Lee

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​Trying to believe.

Trying to believe
that it is all good,
that it is all good,
and getting better all of the time.
The lies that we believe the most
are the ones that we tell ourselves.

​Monday June 19 2017

the American dream
the place where anyone
from anywhere
can do or be anything 
that they choose to be
that you can go from 
no one to anyone
to go as far 
and as fast
as ones ambitions
and motivations will take them

but there is always the darker side to all of this,
that in order to rise
there are those who need to fall
in a game that never seems to end
and that goes on a lot longer then what needs to be necessary

who would believe it,
but it is true
whether we want to know it or not.

Hello Everyone,

It was a long day today,and i feel as if i have gotten nothing done, at least as far as my writing is concerned. I hope that all of you are well and that for those that it applies to, i hope that you had a wonderful fathers day.

​Sunday June 18 2017

sometimes,
even the greatest of minds need to get there rest,
and this happens to be one of those times.
In the meantime,
it is all good.

​Saturday June 17 2017

there are times when I know that I should be writing more then what I am, and that there are times when I say more then what I should.

All that I know right now is that I am feeling somewhere in the middle of all of this. So the only thing that I can say about all of this is that I will just have to see where this is going to take me, but I think that this will not be very far, simply bcause it is late and I have an early day tomorrow, and that I have a late day at work.

I fear that this just might be the end of this for today, and that the best that I can do right now is just leave it be and try not to force it all.

this is one of my favorite pictures of my father. thirty eight fathers days have come and gone, and i miss him every day. Happy fathers day dad. happy fathers day to all of the fathers every where.

for those of you who still have your dad's tell him how much you love and appreciate them, because one day it is going to be to late, and there is nothing worse then being to late.

Good Morning All of You Hipsters,

Sometimes at night, when I cannot sleep, and the radio is playing some old school cool, somehow, everything seems to be right with the world.

Lee Sandro

So it goes. Press on regardless.

Yours In The Spirit Of The Music,

Lee

Good Morning Everyone,

Right now, the only thing that I can say right now is that things in this world are going from bad to worse, and there is nothing but a lot of finger pointing going on and there is really nothing that is going to get done, and millions of dollars are being wasted, not to mention all of the man hours that are being wasted that can be used toward the running of the government.

Is Washington broken and is Washington in need of being fixed, it sure is and it sure does, but what exactly the answers are, well the only thing that I can say right now is that this mess is going to be going on for a very long time, and that are standing in the world is getting effected by this whole mess.

The one thing that I am sure of right now is that violence is not the answer, regardless of what side of the political fence that you are on.

Our right to peaceable assemble is guaranteed, but to peaceable assemble doe not include advocating violence or the destruction of private property is not covered. So where does it all end? 

So it goes. Press on regardless.

Faithfully Yours,

Lee

​“The first draft of anything is shit.” 

― Ernest Hemingway

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​“All you have to do is write one true sentence. Write the truest sentence that you know.” 

― Ernest Hemingway

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Good Morning All of You Caffeine Junkies,

Coffee. Jazz and a hope for the future. It doesn’t get better then this.

Lee Sandro

So it goes. Press on regardless.

Yours In The Spirit Of The Bean,

Lee

​Sometimes I talk to much

sometimes I talk to much
and end up getting myself into trouble,
or getting myself ignored
either way,
it just seems to me
that the only thing that I can do right now
is just keep doing what it is that I am doing
know that some day I will be heard
and that I will be take seriously

​Friday June 16 2017

There are times when I think the whole world is going to hell in a bucket and it’s taking me with it, as if I had a choice in the matter, but it’s at times like this, meaning the shooting of Virginia of the Congressman on Wednesday. It’s at times like this when I think that this country just needs a good dose of old-fashioned revival. I think that would help to solve a lot of our personal differences if not our political differences, and would certainly go a long way in improving the crime rate in this country would certainly help bring it down.

Maybe I’m just being naive about the whole thing and this is just the way that things are meant to be going, it doesn’t mean that I have to like it, and that I shouldn’t pray about the whole thing, but there just comes a time when enough is enough how much of this violence has to happen for we stand up and say enough is enough.

When we all can sit down and pray for peace and reconciliation, and I’m not that naive sit down will be willing to believe that everyone would be willing to sit down and iron out their differences. In which case you cannot legislate ignorance, because people who are not willing or not able to sit down and have an honest discussion about their differences, have a fear that they may be proven wrong. So rather than admit to being wrong. They just rather not engaged in the conversation.

And it doesn’t matter a Republican, a Democrat, a liberal or conservative, there are people on either side, for whatever reason, or going to be unwilling or unable to sit down and have an intelligent conversation.

So for me what am I willing to do in all of this, while at this point it’s the only thing I know how to do and that’s trying to give some sort of an opinion, and granted may be a rather simple opinion, but to give my opinion, and more importantly to pray about the whole thing. A lot can get accomplished with prayer enough people do it for long enough.

Of course there are those who say that religion is for the week, and the ignorant. While that may or may not be true, but for me, looking at the alternative isn’t any better it’s worse. For all those who seem to think that this all started with the bank and that life, at least on this planet evolved from some primordial soup, doesn’t give any hope for the future life any meaning in the present.

That their religion, whoever they are, happens to be in the realm of science, and not that I’m anti-science, science can be a very good tool in helping to explain God’s creation and helping to prolong life make life better life easier, more productive.

At the same time, no at what cost? At what cost do we give up our humanity are sense of community of individual freedoms I can go on and on, but it’s something that hasn’t already been said, but under the present set of circumstances it seems to be getting drowned out.

That anyone who has any sense of spirituality is looked upon as a cuckoo are throwback to another time. I would rather be considered a kook, or throwback, then to live in a world where people hide behind their smart phones in their tablets and their laptops, and don’t interact with people face-to-face. What a quaint idea, sitting down and actually having a conversation face-to-face with someone without having to use a cell phone or tablet or laptop or desktop. In some cases, at least in the younger people I’m seeing that skill me getting lost on them.

That there is a bigger world out there beyond the Internet. I’m sure this has been dealt with before by better minds than mine but I’m throwing my two cents into the discussion.

Not that this is something that can be legislated, but it would be nice if for one day everyone turned off their cell phones their laptops, their desktops and actually sat down and talk to someone face-to-face. What a clever idea. Actually having a discussion with someone about anything. Who could be sports the weather even politics and religion, as long as it’s kept on an academic level, without personal attacks, but people being people there are, or will be occasions well where things will get out of hand.

Is this ever going to happen. I doubt it less people are willing to make it happen. And all of us are inherently lazy, I know that I am, and if I could get away with it, not having to deal with people I mean I would do it, but at the same time we are and will continue to be social creatures, but we have to be willing to exercise that right and work on improving that skill.

Where is all is going to I have no idea. This isn’t what I was planning to write about this evening, but I guess sometimes it just comes out it works itself out the long run, but I guess this may be a good thing. It may be a bad thing, but the only thing I know right now is that I just need to keep doing what I’m doing and thinking what I’m thinking and saying what I’m saying.

Like I said, this is nothing new, in one form or another. It’s always existed goes back to the Garden of Eden, or to Cain and Abel wanting something that someone else has. It is what it is, but we can and have to and need to change, but changing any sort of change requires work, and sometimes we want things to come easily, but real change requires work and sometimes that working can painful. sometimes, though after we’ve gone through the pain or gone through the fire whatever it is you want to call it when we’ve gotten to the other side, we realize that it was all worthwhile. It’s when were going through the middle of it that we wonder whether or not it’s really worth.

Well I’m sorry about all this. I didn’t mean to preach, but we need to start somewhere doing something, whether it be for the good or for the bad something positive. And if that means an old-fashioned revival where this country and indeed the world turns back to God than that’s what it takes. May God hear our prayers and work according to his goodwill and pleasure.

So it goes. Press on regardless.