i figure
that if i keep doing this long enough
that i will finally get it right
until then
​this is going to have to do.

​there are times,
when the only thing that I can say,
is that it is what it is
this thing that we are calling life.
wishing that all that we had to do
was to wish
and wishing would make it so,
but it my world,
​it simply doesn't work that way

it gets so hard at times,
to know what to do
what to say
what to be
to try and gain some wisdom
understanding 
a sense of being
of who you are
and where 
you want to go.
sometimes
it is all just about the moment.

​to much
to little 
to fat
to thin
to early
to late
to love
to hate
to give
to take
until there is nothing left
until we are all used up
with nothing  left but time
and that is always running out

So it goes. Press on regardless.

keep your feet on the ground
your head in the clouds
and follow your dreams
​they know the way

in life,
we always end up getting what we need,
which is always a good thing,
but is it really what we wanted.
​it is all good.

Good morning everyone,

It is all good. It is all very good. for those of you who have been with me form the beginning, thank you. for those of you who may be reading me for the first time, welcome, and come back often.

to all of you, I humbly ask, keep talking me up. telling all of your friends on Facebook, Twitter and even out in the real world about my little corner of the internet. 

don't be afraid to like, or even dislike what you are reading, or to leave a comment. the more the merrier. Let;s turn this thing into a party.

so it goes. press on regardless.

Faithfully Yours,

​Lee

coffee.
cigarettes.
jazz.
the night.
all the things
that keep me writing.
in the hope that 
I will be heard.
even if I am not heard.
there will still be
coffee.
cigarettes.
jazz.
​the night.

catching words in my net.
spreading them out,
and watching them grow.
wondering where they will take me today.

at times,
words never seem to be enough,
to help explain all of the things that I want to say,
to feel,
to explain,
to make happen.
there are still times,
even though we may want to believe otherwise,
that there just some things that are out of our control.
so i do what i can,
and simply pray for the rest.

in life,
there are very few things that we ca count on.
one of them being that life often takes us where it is,
that life will take us,
and it is often to places,
that we thought that we would never go,
or dream of being.
it is all true,
that in the whole scheme of things,
it is just another day.

we make choices all of the time,
whether we realize it or not.
some choices are so mundane,
that we don't even realize that they are choices.
at other times,
the choices seem so large,
that we get almost paralyzed with indecision.
then there is that rare occasion,
when we have no other choice,
then to close our eyes
​and leap into the night.

well if practice makes perfect,
then some day soon,
I am sure that I will get this right.
until then,
​I just have to keepm grinding all of this out.

​it is all good. it is all good and getting better all of the time, though yesterday was not one of my better days, I still feel that it is all subject to change without notice.

I did scare myself in that i did have what I will call a vision, but that is not really the word that I am looking for, but it is going to have to do, at least for right now.

I found myself 'looking' into my future and seeing myself as an old man, who had out lived his family, his friends, his usefulness. that I will end up being the old man that you see shuffling through the market, living on peanut butter sandwiches and chicken soup.

don't ask me where that came from, but it was something that upset me, and that it took me a couple of hours to shake it, and that it was something that i had thought about more then once before, but I was just able to throw it off without to much thought. this time, it was something that really throw me, and i almost want to say that it scared me, but it sure did have me think there for a few minutes.

well the only thing that I can say right now it is strange the way that the human mind works, or the way that my mind works, or doesn't seem to be working at times. what else can i say.

so it goes. press on regardless.

there are times in our lives,
when we are left with no other choice,
but to close our eyes,
pray,
and jump into the ether.
the rest of it is in God's hands.
​

my life,
up to this point,
is not the way that I would have planned it,
and is certainly not something that I would want to go through again,
but the only thing left to do,
​is to see what will come out of today.

if wishing made it so,
then i would not be where it is that I am right now,
and where I am right now,
is not where I would thought that I would be,
when I was a younger man.
when I was a younger man,
the world was a much different place,
or I thought it to be a much different place,
and that all that i had to do was to work hard,
be fair,
and trust God for the rest,
that everything else would just work out.
as i have gotten older,
it seems that it doesn't always work out that way,
that it is a case of God having us just where He wants us,
​if we are willing to believe it.

right now,
I am willing to believe just about anything,
if it means getting to the place where I think that I want to be.
yet getting where we want to be,
and where we are,
can be two different things,
​and can change without notice.

there are times,
when i wonder why things happen the way that they happen.
so far,
the only thing that I have been able to come up with is,
things happen the way that they happen,
because they have to happen that way.
because God is still in control,
whether we believe that or not.
that we become who He wants us to be,
and not what we think of ourselves.
It is all good.
​all that I can do right now is just pray about it.

in the end,
the only thing that really matters,
is love,
no matter how imperfect that it is,
it will become,
​or where it will take us.

sometimes we have to go back to where we started,
in order to understand where it is that we are going.

there are times,
when it all just gets so hard to understand,
or to even believe that things could get better,
that things will get better,
in this thing that we are calling life.
knowing all to well
that it is all subject to change without notice.
that life will often take us to places that we do not want,
or thought that we would be able to go.
it all never really changes,
that the only thing that really matters,
is how well we can walk on water.

who would believe,
that life is what life is,
and that there are some things that we simply cannot change.
the wisdom is to know the difference.

there are times though,
when we have to have faith in ourselves,
and close our eyes,
leap into the ether,
and wait to see what happens.
we trust God for the rest.

don't be afraid to leave a comment,
the more the merrier.
if nothing else,
at least i know that all of this stuff is being read.

the time has come again,
when I will have to bite the bullet,
and invest in a new laptop.
not that it is something that I want to do,
but it is something that I am going to have to do.
if i wish to keep all of this going.
I have done to much, 
and have spent far to much time,
simply to ,let something as trivial
as technology to get in the way.