The best thing I can say right now is that at least this day is the start of another day or what I hope will end up being a good day because it just seems that after all is said and done, there's always something out of my control that will come along and just make my day miserable or throw me off or whatever it is you want to call it, but there are days when the only thing I can hope for will be that the day will come when I will be able to get through the bulk of my days without any drama.
There have been periods in my life when it seems that I had enough drama to last me the rest of my life, but the point being I have to live today for today because yesterday is history and tomorrow is a mystery as I've heard some people say, and today is the present that has yet to be opened. Now that's more than just a little trite, it may be more than just a little threadbare, but there's still a lot of truth in that statement. Know whether we want to believe it or not that's another matter but the only thing I can say right now is it is what it is and nothing more.
Know where my going with all this, I guess where I'm going is that I have to keep reminding myself that there are certain things that are out of my control and one of them being what other people think or do or say or understand or believe. That I can only do the best that I know how to do and I know that there are going to be those who are not going to like me or that they think I should be doing more I should be doing it differently I should be more like them I should be more like this other person I am not you I am not this other person I am me.
I know that this may be sounding a bit cryptic but at this point in my life there is a situation where it's best that I keep it this way until such time as things change and I can be more specific in some of my comments. I hope that your understanding all of this and that I appreciate your patience your indulgence to allow me to play my Stradivarius.
In the meantime though life goes on the world still turns in spite of my problems but it's all good because my problems in comparison to what's going on the rest of the world is insignificant, but at the same time they are my problems and I have to deal with them and still try to be a citizen of the world if that makes any sense.
I guess that what I'm trying to say is I would try to lead a balanced life and that I need to live my life, and still be informed as to what's going on out in the real world. Not to get so caught up in my own problems that I start isolating myself and start cutting myself off from the people that are important to me and I hope that I'm not getting cut off by then that I am amongst the people that are important to them.
It’s all good. So it goes. Press on regardless.