good morning,
​sometimes, the only thing that I can hope for is that tomorrow will be a better day for writing. I do not want to waste a day and not write at all. there are times when I feel so full of doubt when it comes to all of this, that I am beginning to wonder whether or not it is all worth it and whether or not all of my efforts are being taken seriously. the question for me still remains, which is worse, not being taken seriously or being ignored. Any ideas or suggestions? so it goes. press on regardless.
faithfully yours,
lee 

Saturday, September 12, 2020

it's late June
my birthday is in a few days
I have not slept well in months
I am beginning to believe that 
this is what death feels like
not that I am planning on going anywhere 
I find myself wondering how much time
I just might have left
thinking that I just might feel better
with a few days away from the circus.

in case you didn't know it's benny goodman

I need to drink more coffee. It keeps me from falling asleep at work.

​Good Morning,
Right now, emotionally, at least I'm trying to get myself ready to go back to work tomorrow or today depending upon when you're reading this. I know I should be thankful for having a job to go back to, but I would have liked to have stretched out for another couple of weeks, but my Dr. was not seeing it that way, so it's back to work I go like it or not. I really could get used to leading this literary life, but it all comes down to being able to finance this undertaking. This is same thing forever; it always comes down to the money. You either have the money, and can do just about whatever you damn well please, or you don't have the money. It takes all your strength just to survive, and pray that you are somehow able to keep your dreams alive. It's all good. So it goes. Press on regardless.
 
Faithfully yours,
 
Lee
 

Saturday, September 5, 2020

thinking of all of those that I have loved
who have gone on before
knowing all too well 
that they have all of the answers now
and I envy them for that
it is they who should be mourning for us
for we are the ones who are left
to keep fighting the fight.

​good morning,
It's all good except for the fact that I got caught in the rain during my walk and lost a couple of pounds because I am made of sugar. that is a good thing, if only it were true. I pray that you are well and that I will be hearing from you soon. so it goes. press on regardless.
faithfully yours,
lee

​Love,
laughter,
the will of God.
Wishing that I could finally get something done in this life,
while working for the next.
I really should be having the time of my life.
In this world who with other voice.
Being amazed as I can in the way of my own mind.
I have all the things that I need,
or all of the things that I think need,
even for the moment.
I find myself wishing for something that I know that I will never have.
I wish for it anyway.
Caught between something old and true,
and something bold and new.
What will become of it all? 

​good morning,
sometimes I have just had to stop and say thank you to my family and friends for there love and support over the past several weeks. it is such a blessing to know that there are so many that cared and continue to do so. may God bless you
so it goes. press on regardless.
faithfully yours,
Lee

​saturday, august 8, 2020
sometimes
if we believe it
it is still good
but there are times
when it really looked
as if it wasn't
that good.
either way,
it is still good.

​good morning    
just a few lines to keep all of this going. I am feeling a little tired from the nuclear stress test that I had on Wednesday. It didn't knock me out completely but just left me feeling tired. it is all good. I am still on the road to recovery. I hope that you are all well and that I will be hearing from you soon.
so it goes. press on regardless.
faithfully yours,
lee

Saturday, August 1, 2020

there are times in our lives
when it becomes hard  to tell
one from the other
and to say that there is nothing that changes
would be an understatement
nothing more
nothing less
and the world still turns.

good morning,
​
right now, the days come and the days go, and there seems to be no real change, but change always comes whether we want it to or not. the only thing that does not change is God. It's all good though. it is all good and getting better all of the time, because God is still in control and nothing ever changes that.
I hope that you are all well and that I will be hearing from you soon. 
so it goes. press on regardless.

faithfully yours,
lee

Saturday, July 25, 2020

there are often times
what we get
is not what we would have wished for
or even imagined
but it is what we have been given
so how we play the cards that we have been given
is all a matter of experience and luck
it's still good after all of this time.

good morning,

the events of the past couple of weeks have left me with a lot of time to try and figure out what it is that I am going to be doing for the rest of my life. I am not sure exactly what that means, but that is one of the things that I need to try and figure out. by the time I figure it all out, it just might be past me. I hope that is not the case, but there are times when I just have my doubts about the whole thing. that the only thing that I can do is the best that I can and just leave the rest to God. of course there is a lot of prayers that needs to go into all of this as well. it's all good and is getting better because in the end, God is still in control.

good morning
just a few lines to try and keep all of this going, whatever this is. it seems that life begins and ends withe every moment. there are times when it seems that whatever try to do in the long run doesn't matter, but I try any way. one never really knows what will happen.
So it goes. Press on regardless.
 
Faithfully Yours,
 
Lee

​Saturday, May 30, 2020
 
I am so sick of all of this doubt
of all of these false friends and there false emotions
I want roses lining my garden path
not thorns
I want lavender at my garden window
not thistle
I prefer these few friends to the vast reality
 

good morning,
As always, there are some thing that we can control. there are those things that we cannot control. there have been times in my life when I have went for one thing and walked away with something moire tat I could have wanted or expected. Is It good or bad, well it is all a matter of experience.
So it goes. Press on regardless.
 
Faithfully Yours,
 
Lee

Saturday may 16 2020
 
words without meaning
life without love
sometimes it all 
simply runs together
until you don't know who
or what to believe
by then it is often to late
to try and start over 

good morning.
 
The best thing that I can do right now is to try and get some sleep. Wish me luck.
 
So it goes. Press on regardless.
 
Faithfully Yours,
 
Lee
 
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Friday, May 15, 2020
 
It is better to try and fail
and try again
then not to try at all
because you have failed already.
how often do you keep trying
before it all becomes madness
and the world will soon forget who you are

good morning,
 
sometimes, the only thing left to say is, good morning and have a wonderful day. If you cannot have a wonderful day, then simply do the best that you can. to try and say anymore, the words would just clutter it all up.
 
So it goes. Press on regardless.
 
Faithfully Yours,
 
Lee