​    It’s Just A Thought.

It’s just a thought, but the best thing that I can do right now is call it a day. The world will still turn if I do not write for a day or two, but just one more day of all of this, and then a couple of days off, simply because it is just what it is and nothing more. I hope that you are all well. So it goes. Press on regardless. 

​    stepping over it all

stepping over it all
to try and get to something new
something useful
something good
sometimes
we need to give up something old
to find something even better

​Friday, September 14, 2018

there are times when I feel lost
alone
abandoned 
isolated
without hope
understanding
or purpose

forgotten
ignored
misunderstood
misquoted
and otherwise not taken seriously

in all of this
I will not give up
I will keep on doing what I do
even if it means that God
and myself
are the only one that will listen to me

Good Morning Everyone,

Sometimes, it all gets better and sometimes it gets worse. The one thing that I know is that there may be one or two days next week that I will be stepping away from all of this, just to get my head back in the game. Maybe do a little reading, just to be able to do all of the things that I need to be doing again. Of course, it will not be now, and tomorrow will bring more of the same. It is all good.

It’s all good. So it goes. Press on regardless.

Faithfully Yours,

Lee

​it’s just a thought

It’s just a thought, but there are times in all of this trying just to survive, that I am forgetting how to live. It’s just a thought. So it goes. Press on regardless.

​Saturday, September 8, 2018

feeling left behind,
when I am at a time in my life
when I thought that I would be getting ahead
but there just seems that it is always the way that it has been
that in order to get ahead
you sometimes have to fall behind

​Good Sunday Morning,

There are times when the only thing that I can say is that I am just happy to be here and that there are times when I am just happy with the little things in life. That is the way that I should be feeling more then what I normally do. 

More then one person has said to me that I am simply too much of a cynic. I am beginning to think that they just might be right. At the same time, there are times that I do not consider myself to be a cynic but a realist. There is a subtle but real difference.

Where am I going with all of this? Well, I think that part of it just might be due to the fact that I am just getting older, and that I feel at times that I am just starting to take it all a little less seriously, but one never really knows about what will happen with all of this. I guess that I just need to put that out there, for whatever the reason.

Praying that you have a blessed week. So it goes. Press on regardless.

Faithfully Yours,

Lee
    

Good Morning Everyone,

I try not to think too much about what might happen because it is usually a case of nothing happens at all, or it is worse then I might have imagined. Still, I think that we all have a tendency to over analyze a situation, and end up wasting too much energy and losing to much sleep over things that we cannot control. 

Even if these things were within our control, we would be worrying about the outcome or what other people may be thinking. There is one thing for certain though, I have never been too worried about what other people were thinking. As a matter of fact, the number of people that I know whose opinion that I give enough credence to worry about, number less than ten, and I know a lot of people, so the only thing left to do is to just go on with the rest of my life, not that I have much choice in the matter but to do otherwise.

Now where is all of this leading to, well I am really not all that sure, but the one thing that I know for sure is that there are times when I think that the world would be a lot better place if we all stuck to the things that we know that we can control, in our own lives, and live and let live, it would all be what it needs to be.

Now there just might be those amongst all of you that are thinking, that there are times when we will need to take a stand for something, even if it seems that taking that stand may mean making a few enemies, but it is all a case of knowing when and what battles that need to be fought. I know this to be tur in my own life.

As Abraham Lincoln put it, “To sin by silence when they should protest makes cowards of men.” Not that I am putting myself in the same class as President Lincoln, but it seems to be the thing that sums up what I am trying to say at the moment.

Sorry, I didn’t mean to preach, but I guess that it is still true though, that if you speak without thinking, then you find out what is really on your mind. So pardon me whilst I step down off of my soapbox.

It’s all good. So it goes. Press on regardless.

Faithfully Yours,

Lee

​Saturday, September 1, 2018

another Saturday night
dreaming of Paris
or some other far off
romantic place
that I wish to be
to understand
to know
to become familiar
to be alive again 
even if it is only for the moment

but it all becomes too much
but the world still turns
no matter what it is that I want to do
where I want to be
or whatever else that I may be thinking

​it’s just a thought

It’s just a thought, but there are times when I find myself planning a trip that I want to be able to take. But know that there will be no real chance, that I will be able to take it, at least on the money that I have been able to save, which is not all that much. As a matter of fact, I do not know of anyone who has been able to do all of the things that they have been wanting to do, but the point is, I am not everyone else.

The point is that the only thing that I know right now is that I just need to keep believing that someday all of this is going to be coming true and that I will be able to do all of the things that I have been wanting to do. I would like to be able to just be that one person that everyone else seems to know that was able to just do all of the things that they have ever wanted to do. No, maybe I am just being stupid about the whole thing, and that I am just little more than just a dreamer of dreams that will never come true. Well, we all need to hold onto something, and this is where I have chosen to hang the hat that I have. It is just a thought. So it goes. Press on regardless.

Good Sunday Morning,

Well as all things go in my world, things were not all that bad this past week, but at the same time, I had better weeks, the only thing that I am able to do right now is just praying that things will slowly get better, not that things are all that bad right at the moment, but as with everything else in life, there is always room for improvement.

I have come to the conclusion, however, that I really do need to start managing my time better. This is something that I have been talking about on and off, in various formats for a while now, but it seems that is about on and off for some time now, but I still have not been able to make any progress on that front, which is my own fault, simply because I have just been too lazy to do anything about it, which is my own fault of course. So the one thing that I can do right now is that I am just going to have to keep on doing what it is that I am doing and pray that it will all fall into place. I don’t think that it actually works out that way, but it would be nice to think that it did.

I pray that you all had a marvelous week and that the coming week will be that much better. It is always good because God is still in control.

Praying that you have a blessed week. So it goes. Press on regardless.

Faithfully Yours,

Lee

Good Morning Everyone,
Hard to believe that we are into September already, and the place that I work at, has had Halloween candy out for two weeks already. Kind of rushing things aren’t they? The year is going fast enough as it is, I don’t think that they need to be helping it along, but what do I know, I only work there.
I guess that is the way that things are in retail, especially when you are working in the food industry side of it all. So the only thing left to do right now is just deal with it, but there was a time in my life, about one hundred years ago now, when I was not working retail, and I had the weekends off and was able to enjoy football, but now, I am lucky if I get to watch the Monday Night Game. Well, that is another story for another.
As for everything else that is my life, it seems that the more that things change, the more that they stay the same, which may or may not be a good thing, but it is the way that my life works right at the moment, which is a good thing, I guess.
The one thing that I have noticed during all of this writing thing is, that I find myself getting so very tired by the time I get through with the whole thing, I find myself feeling so very tired from it all. I think that part of it might have to do with the fact that on most days, I have worked at my real job before doing all of this, and that is something that I am sure that is working against me, but the fact still remains, that I find myself getting so very tired from it all.
Now I am not sure what all of that has to do with anything, but it just seems to be the way that these things go in my life. It is what it is and nothing more. So the best thing that I can do is to just go along with it all and hope for the best.
It’s all good. So it goes. Press on regardless.
Faithfully Yours,
Lee

Good Morning Everyone,

I often find myself getting lost in the music. The music being jazz and the classics, which, in my opinion, are the best, that time simply slips away from me and that in the end, it is better then some other places that I could be going, so I just keep on hoping that the time will come when the only thing left to do would be just to keep on doing what I am doing, in the hope that something better then what I have done in the pasty will come from all of this. That it will bring out the better angels of my nature. What else is there? Well there are at lot of other things, but very little of it is of any interest to me.

Well that is something that can be said for all of us, that there are things that interest us, and that there are things that we could care less about. In the end, it just seems to me that the only thing l;eft to say is that in this case at least, we each have to follow our own path. What I find of incredible interest, may be something totally of no interest to someone else, and around it all goes. I can only present what is of interest to me, and see where it all goes form there. This, of course, is nothing new, but there would be a lot less fuss and bother if we all just let live and let live, but it doesn’t always work out that way. You are always going to meet people along the way who are going to be sticking there nose where it does not belong. 

Now getting out of that diplomatically can be a feat, but it can be done, it is just a question of not letting our emotions get the better of us, which is something that is often easier said then done. Well it is all just what it is and nothing more.

It’s all good. So it goes. Press on regardless.

Faithfully Yours,

Lee

www.silentscreamsandothermusings.com 

Revised.

Good Morning Everyone,

I often find myself getting lost in the music. The music being jazz and the classics, which, in my opinion, are the best, that time simply slips away from me and that in the end, it is better than some other places that I could be going, so I just keep on hoping that the time will come when the only thing left to do would be just to keep on doing what I am doing, in the hope that something better then what I have done in the pasty will come from all of this. That it will bring out the better angels of my nature. What else is there? Well, there are a lot of other things, but very little of it is of any interest to me.

Well, that is something that can be said for all of us, that there are things that interest us, and that there are things that we could care less about. In the end, it just seems to me that the only thing left to say is that in this case at least, we each have to follow our own path. What I find of incredible interest, maybe something totally of no interest to someone else, and around it all goes. I can only present what is of interest to me, and see where it all goes from there. This, of course, is nothing new, but there would be a lot less fuss and bother if we all just let live and let live, but it doesn’t always work out that way. You are always going to meet people along the way who are going to be sticking there nose where it does not belong.

Now getting out of that diplomatically can be a feat, but it can be done, it is just a question of not letting our emotions get the better of us, which is something that is often easier said than done. Well, it is all just what it is and nothing more.

It’s all good. So it goes. Press on regardless.

Faithfully Yours,

Lee

​it’s just a thought

It’s just a thought, but there are times when I think that instead of bringing the world closer together, it seems that all of this technology has driven us further apart and that we do not know how to act toward one another if we do not have a tablet or a cell phone in our hands. Maybe it is just me and I am just being a bit of an old crabby guy, or maybe I am just being what I have always was, just someone who has always been around. Well just being around is better then simply being ignored. Feeling like I am being ignored, well that is another story for another time, but I can say that I have been there as well. It’s just a thought. So it goes. Press on regardless. 

​it all comes down to wishful thinking

sometimes life
simply comes down to wishful thinking
I have found
that most of the rest of it
is simply out of our control
though we all like to think that we are in control
it all never gets any better
and there are times when it seems to get worse
because we all try and simply to be the master of our own ship
the best that has happened to me
is that I have wound up not where I wanted to be

​Monday, August 27, 2018

quietly seeking some sort of answers
but there is very little that I find 
myself willing to believe
today is something that will never
happen again
all because of wishful thinking
and doing what needs to be done
just to keep body and soul together
and still wishing for a better life
but the problem of living for today
still remains the same
that it all ends much too quickly

Good Morning Everyone,

There are times in my life when I feel that this just might be just about as good as it gets for me. That all of the thoughts, all of the dreams that I had of a better life are just that, thoughts and dreams. Living up to nothing other then what I can do, only to keep on going, because what else is there left to do but to keep on going. To work at what I do, only because there is nothing else left that interests me enough to find out that it really does not interest me all that much anymore.

Still, the best that I can hope for is that there is still enough time to do all of the things that I need to be doing to get to where it is that I want to be, and that is the literary promised land. Well, one of the reasons that I am keeping up with all of this is, that I can control what goes on with all of this, that I am the one who makes all of the decisions.

Most of the time is taken up by people who are telling me what to do. Of course, I am being paid for this, so it does help to take off some of the stings, but there is always that sense of resentment, that I feel as if I am being treated like a second-class citizen. So I do what I do and I take what I take, knowing that there will come a time in this dog’s life when he will have his day.

Of course it is hard not to be taking all of this to personally, simply because there are times when I feel as if I am being singles out simply because it seems that I am the only person where I work, that is dumb enough to keep saying yes to coming in early, staying late, and working so many days in a row. There will come a time when this boy is going to learn how to say no, and there are going to be some people that I know that is not going to like it, but what else can I do? I have reached the point in my life where I really do need to start thinking more about myself. Not in a selfish or self-centered way, but taking more time out for myself and for all of the things that I need to be doing.

Sorry, didn’t mean to go off in that direction, but there are times when the only thing that I can do is just scream a little bit. It’s all good.

It’s all good. So it goes. Press on regardless.

Faithfully Yours,

Lee

​It’s Just A Thought.

It’s just a thought, but when bad thongs happen to good people, the only thing left to say is, when the bad times are over, we appreciate the good times even more.

​going with all of it

going along with it all
whatever going along 
with it all really means
but in the end
it just seems that 
when we find it 
much easier to fight
then to fight a battle
that cannot be won
where is the strength
where is the wisdom
in either one
the you just pick your 
side
and live with the 
consequences

going with all of it

going along with it all
whatever going along 
with it all really means
but in the end
it just seems that 
when we find it 
much easier to fight
then to fight a battle
that cannot be won
where is the strength
where is the wisdom
in either one
the you just pick your 
side
and live with the 
consequences

going with all of it

going along with it all
whatever going along 
with it all really means
but in the end
it just seems that 
when we find it 
much easier to fight
then to fight a battle
that cannot be won
where is the strength
where is the wisdom
in either one
the you just pick your 
side
and live with the 
consequences

​Tuesday, August 21, 2018

sometimes
just going with what life throws at us
is the hardest thing that we can ever do
we have tendency to just fight against the tide
and we waste to much energy in the meantime
it does not mean that we have to like it
but sometimes we need to pick our battles

Good Morning Everyone,

Well things are starting to get back to normal, if there is such a thing as normal in this part of the world. Just trying to put some events behind me and simply get back to the rest of my life. I only hope that is the case. Only time will tell.

It’s all good. So it goes. Press on regardless.

Faithfully Yours,

Lee

​It’s Just A Thought.

It’s just a thought, but we all have times in our lives, when we are wondering, sometimes out loud, when will all of the bull shit end, and we can all just get on with the rest of our lives. Well that is where I am finding myself right now, wondering when all of the bullshit is going to end and I can finally get on with the life that I know that is waiting out there somewhere for me. That I will be able to do all of the things that I have ever dreamt about doing, going to all of the places that I have ever dreamt about seeing and writing all of the things that I have ever thought about writing. That all of this is just little more then preparation for all of the rest of it. Until then, I guess that this is simply going to have to do.

​reaching into the ether

when I write
I find myself just typing
hoping that what I am saying
or what I am trying to say
will come out the way that 
I had planned that it 
would come out
at other times
I find myself reaching into 
the ether
seeing what I will be able
to grab by the tale
and through across the page
so far
neither one seems to be 
working.