​it’s just a thought

It’s just a thought, but to say thank you to all of my friends simply does not seem to be enough, but it is the only thing to say. I am very grateful and very humbled to know that there are so many friends who care enough to pray and to share their good wishes. Thank you and thanks be to God.

​Tuesday, October 16, 2018

when you find yourself in the darkness of your own making
knowing that it was something that should not have happened
but it happened anyway
you pray that you will not be overwhelmed 
that there will be the sunshine of God’s love
we just have to be willing to ask for it

​Good Morning Everyone,

I normally do not ask for prayers at least not in this form when I'm going through a dark and difficult time right now due to circumstances that I will not get into here but please pray for a quick and quiet resolution to this matter. I'm finding myself through feeling very ashamed very embarrassed over the situation that I should not have let happen but it did and I fear it may escalate into something darker that's why I'm asking for your prayers at this point. If you are a member of the Christian church that has a prayer chain please feel free to place me on your prayer list as well until the situation is resolved. Thank you and thanks be to God.

It’s all good. So it goes. Press on regardless.

Faithfully Yours,

Lee

​it’s just a thought

it’s just a thought, but there are times when the only thing that can be known is that we are always trying to find meaning in something that we know that we may never find and that those who live lives that are not always understood, always seem to be the happiest. It’s just a thought. So it goes, press on regardless.

​Saturday, October 13, 2018

moving through time in order to try and make something real
something beautiful, something that just might be worthwhile
even in the middle of all of the ugliness that life has to offer us
becoming aware of all of the things that will make life real
what else is there left to remember, what else is there to forget
laughter mixed with tears mixed with the wine of sorrow
wishing that there is always something that seems less than perfect
looming for perfect has never been easy and is always out of reach

​it’s just a thought

It’s just a thought, but there are times when the only thing that I can do is to just start typing and see what it is that I end up with. At times like that, I feel a bit like a jazz musician. Sometimes they start and they do not know where it is that they are going to finish. It’s just a thought. So it goes. Press on regardless.

​there are times

there are times when it all just doesn’t seem real
that the world should be a different place
more calm sedated
near to where God is
but it doesn’t always work out that we
the world is much too real
cold
unforgiving
never really true
and never really false
it is all some sort of chess game
of chess game
where there are no losers
and the only winner is the undertaker
and his turn will soon come

​Sunday, October 7, 2018

spending hours trying to write
but at the end of it all
it just seems to be all wrong
but the best that I can do
is get up and go out for a coffee
have a cigarette
watch all of the young women
almost girls who are young enough to be my daughter
and wonder where it is that I went wrong
wondering what it is that I am doing wrong
still
I know what it is that I am
and I know what it is that I am not
but it is still not helping me write

Good Morning Everyone,

Well here I am again trying to say something worthwhile but there are times when I think I have so much that I want to say but when I actually sit down and try and say it I spent half my time trying to sort it all out and I spent half my time trying to sort it all out trying to figure out what's important and what is it or what order to put it in. Seems I'm wasting more time trying to figure that out that I do actually try to write. Sometimes I think that if I just start typing or in this case just start talking because I am at the moment using some dictation software so if I tried just speaking I just might find out what's really on my mind.

Of course, there are times when I feel that I am under the time restraints so that may or may not have something to do with it, but that's another story for another time. In the meantime I can only do what I can do and hope that one of these days I will be able to put all that behind me and I will have  without having to worry about all the time that I need to write without having to watch the clock to watch the calendar to concentrate on nothing but my writing. In the meantime, though I have to live here and now under the conditions that I am living under right at the moment which is not all bad considering what I came out of. That too is another story for another time.

As for everything else, things are fairly quiet in this part of the jungle. That's always a good thing but in my life, things are always subject to change without notice.

It’s all good. So it goes. Press on regardless.

Faithfully Yours,

Lee

​Friday, September 28, 2018

the way that I am feeling right now
about life and the condition of the world
I think the less said the better
because I feel that I am just talking and there is no one listening

Good Morning Everyone,

I am beginning to think that I might have over done it at work today, just a little bit. There are times when I keep forgetting that I am not twenty five years old anymore and that I cannot always do all of the things that I was doing when I was twenty five years old. I wonder why that is? I know what it is, it is because I am notr twenty-five years old any more. It has become a case of what I could do all day now takes all day. 

It’s all good. So it goes. Press on regardless.

Faithfully Yours,

Lee

​It’s Just A Thought.

It’s just a thought, but why is it that those who want to honesty, are those who are least willing to hear what is honest. It’s just a thought. So it goes. Press on regardless

​becoming aware

becoming aware at a time when it all just seemed well too late
I cannot undo what has been done it simply doesn’t work that way
never believing otherwise
I choose to believe in something else
someone filled with wisdom
insight and a new way of getting over it.

Saturday, September 22, 2018

sometimes I find myself losing the spirit
the fight
the lust for life that I thought that I had 
feeling miserable about the way of things
of the word
the way
the life that I thought that I was going to have
that I was going to be
that I was going to make it
whatever it is
in spite of all of the odds
the will 
the way
the life and death of it all
leading to a blind life 
at blind jobs
with blind love and dumb luck
​

Good Sunday Morning,
For me, it was somewhat of a quiet week, overall, but there were moments when it seemed that things were not always going the way that I would have liked, but that is what being alive is all about, trying to get through it all. I do hope that you all will be spending the Lord’s Day with His people. It is always good.
Praying that you have a blessed week. So it goes. Press on regardless.
Faithfully Yours,
Lee

Good Morning Everyone,
Well, here I am again, trying to get back into my writing routine, for better or worse. In the meantime, the only thing that I wish that I could say was that I was filled with new material, but we will see what will happen over the next couple of days.
Even with that in mind, it is still a matter of getting back to the task at hand and trying to figure out what it is that I want or that I need to be saying which can always be a challenge.
It’s all good. So it goes. Press on regardless.
Faithfully Yours,
Lee

​    It’s Just A Thought.

It’s just a thought, but the best thing that I can do right now is call it a day. The world will still turn if I do not write for a day or two, but just one more day of all of this, and then a couple of days off, simply because it is just what it is and nothing more. I hope that you are all well. So it goes. Press on regardless. 

​    stepping over it all

stepping over it all
to try and get to something new
something useful
something good
sometimes
we need to give up something old
to find something even better

​Friday, September 14, 2018

there are times when I feel lost
alone
abandoned 
isolated
without hope
understanding
or purpose

forgotten
ignored
misunderstood
misquoted
and otherwise not taken seriously

in all of this
I will not give up
I will keep on doing what I do
even if it means that God
and myself
are the only one that will listen to me

Good Morning Everyone,

Sometimes, it all gets better and sometimes it gets worse. The one thing that I know is that there may be one or two days next week that I will be stepping away from all of this, just to get my head back in the game. Maybe do a little reading, just to be able to do all of the things that I need to be doing again. Of course, it will not be now, and tomorrow will bring more of the same. It is all good.

It’s all good. So it goes. Press on regardless.

Faithfully Yours,

Lee

​it’s just a thought

It’s just a thought, but there are times in all of this trying just to survive, that I am forgetting how to live. It’s just a thought. So it goes. Press on regardless.

​Saturday, September 8, 2018

feeling left behind,
when I am at a time in my life
when I thought that I would be getting ahead
but there just seems that it is always the way that it has been
that in order to get ahead
you sometimes have to fall behind

​Good Sunday Morning,

There are times when the only thing that I can say is that I am just happy to be here and that there are times when I am just happy with the little things in life. That is the way that I should be feeling more then what I normally do. 

More then one person has said to me that I am simply too much of a cynic. I am beginning to think that they just might be right. At the same time, there are times that I do not consider myself to be a cynic but a realist. There is a subtle but real difference.

Where am I going with all of this? Well, I think that part of it just might be due to the fact that I am just getting older, and that I feel at times that I am just starting to take it all a little less seriously, but one never really knows about what will happen with all of this. I guess that I just need to put that out there, for whatever the reason.

Praying that you have a blessed week. So it goes. Press on regardless.

Faithfully Yours,

Lee
    

Good Morning Everyone,

I try not to think too much about what might happen because it is usually a case of nothing happens at all, or it is worse then I might have imagined. Still, I think that we all have a tendency to over analyze a situation, and end up wasting too much energy and losing to much sleep over things that we cannot control. 

Even if these things were within our control, we would be worrying about the outcome or what other people may be thinking. There is one thing for certain though, I have never been too worried about what other people were thinking. As a matter of fact, the number of people that I know whose opinion that I give enough credence to worry about, number less than ten, and I know a lot of people, so the only thing left to do is to just go on with the rest of my life, not that I have much choice in the matter but to do otherwise.

Now where is all of this leading to, well I am really not all that sure, but the one thing that I know for sure is that there are times when I think that the world would be a lot better place if we all stuck to the things that we know that we can control, in our own lives, and live and let live, it would all be what it needs to be.

Now there just might be those amongst all of you that are thinking, that there are times when we will need to take a stand for something, even if it seems that taking that stand may mean making a few enemies, but it is all a case of knowing when and what battles that need to be fought. I know this to be tur in my own life.

As Abraham Lincoln put it, “To sin by silence when they should protest makes cowards of men.” Not that I am putting myself in the same class as President Lincoln, but it seems to be the thing that sums up what I am trying to say at the moment.

Sorry, I didn’t mean to preach, but I guess that it is still true though, that if you speak without thinking, then you find out what is really on your mind. So pardon me whilst I step down off of my soapbox.

It’s all good. So it goes. Press on regardless.

Faithfully Yours,

Lee

​Saturday, September 1, 2018

another Saturday night
dreaming of Paris
or some other far off
romantic place
that I wish to be
to understand
to know
to become familiar
to be alive again 
even if it is only for the moment

but it all becomes too much
but the world still turns
no matter what it is that I want to do
where I want to be
or whatever else that I may be thinking