Sunday, April 5, 2020

there was a time in my life
when I had a life
now my life has become predictable
that I want my life back

good morning    

the first day back to work after some time off is always the hardest and with all of this virus thing going around, it just made it all that much harder. I hope that you are well and that I will be hearing from you soon. it is still good.

So it goes. Press on regardless.

Faithfully Yours,

Lee

Sunday. March 29, 2020

the best that I know
the best that I can do
is just know that one of these days
everything will be explained 
in a new way
by then
it simply may not matter
but I am simply looking forward
to that day.

​I guess that things are going well, so far, but the one thing that I know right now is that there are just some things that are out of my control and I am not liking the way that is making me feel right now. I understand that there will always be things in life that are out of our control, but all of this is just so much bigger than what I am and that can be more than just a little bit frightening. all of this is nothing like anything any of us have been through and no one has any answers and there are no real answers in all of this. there are so many different reports and ideas at far as what might happen that you simply do not know what to believe or where all of this will go.
I'm the end, the only person that knows is God, and at the moment He is not saying much. so the only thing that I can do right now is to keep on praying. knowing that God is still in control. nothing ever changes that. these are the times that really test one's faith, I know that it is testing mine because even though I'm on vacation this week, I am still going to have to go back out into the fray.
sorry, didn't mean to ramble, but it is just something that I needed to get out there. it is all good because God is still in control. I hope that you are well. blessings

Sunday, March 22, 2020

Who will remember those that are lost
the lonely
the losers
Those who always seem to be around
but never really seem to get anything accomplished
until one day
they quietly slip away
leaving behind nothing but a memory
if they're lucky

So it goes. Press on regardless.

Faithfully Yours,

Lee

good morning,

going through times like the one that we are going through now with this who coronavirus thing, I am starting to think once more about just trying to keep all of this simple, and by this I mean life. That we are making this more complicated, I think, than what it really needs to be. do we need to be careful in all of this, yes by all means, but at the same time, the media is making all of this sound far worse than what it might be. Maybe it is all that they are saying that it is and I am just being stupid about the whole thing. It would not be the first time that I have done something like that and I am sure that it is not going to be the last. the rest of it is just what it is, out of my control. in the meantime, I pray that you are doing well and that I will hearing from you soon. Blessings.

So it goes. Press on regardless.

Faithfully Yours,

Lee

Sunday, March 15, 2020

trying to find my way
through a world
that at least for the moment
that seems to have gone mad
over something that has taken 
control over our common sense
we all have let our emotions
take control
then,
when it is all over,
at least for myself,
I find myself thinking,
what was I thinking?

good morning,

I understand that this is more of a precaution more than anything else, at least as far as I have been able to determine, but the Boro of Red Bank as declared a state of emergency, meaning that all nonessential business' are closed, at least that is what I am getting out of the announcement that I read online. That means I am going to have to go to work as scheduled because I work in a supermarket and that falls under an essential service. It's all good because God is still in control.

So it goes. Press on regardless.

Faithfully Yours,

Lee

Sunday, March 8, 2020    

sometimes
sleep can solve a multitude of problems
at other times
sleep does little more than just put them off

So it goes. Press on regardless.

Faithfully Yours,

Lee

good morning,

last night was not a good night as far as sleep was concerned. of course, the time change did not help the cause, so I guess that explains why I am feeling so tired, and here I was thinking that I was just getting old. It's all good.

So it goes. Press on regardless.

Faithfully Yours,

Lee

Sunday, March 1, 2020

someday
I will be spending quiet time
with three or four close friends
hot coffee
cool jazz
and great conversation
what more could one ask for

good morning,

one of these days I will get around to sleeping at night. I am not sure, but I think that is when such things are done. I hope that you are well and that I will be hearing from you soon.

So it goes. Press on regardless.

Faithfully Yours,

Lee

Sunday, February 23, 2020

sometimes
the only thing left to do
is to live life
on life's terms
as if we had  a real choice
in the matter
in the end
life always wins

good morning,

I am going to be 58 years old this year and there are still times when I fell that there will never be a time when I will be able to do anything right, meaning that there are times when I still feel like I am sixteen years old, awkward and not feeling as if I will ever fit anywhere or that I will be able to do anything right, other than what I am trying to do right now and that is to be trying to be a writer, but it just seems that I am not doing a very good job at this either, yet this is probably one of the few things in my life that I have been told that I was ever any good at, at all. This and making a pot of coffee, are very marketable skills. I  should be able to get a job anywhere with this skill set. you believe me, don't you? 

So it goes. Press on regardless.

Faithfully Yours,

Lee 

friday, february 21 2020

fear
or regret
sometimes
it is hard
to know
the difference

good morning,

there are times when I still wonder why it is that I do this whole email thing. well, the one thing that I am sure of is that this interests me more than what of the things that I know other people are doing, yet again, I am not other people, so it all works out. in the meantime, I am not other people, so in the end, it all works out, because the vast majority of people that I have met over the course of my life I would rather not be them and I am sure that they feel the same way about me so it all works out. so it goes. press on regardless.

Faithfully Yours,

Lee

Sunday, February 9, 2020

there are times
like now
when things are
in my life
are going along
just about as well
as things can be going
for me
when technology
manages to get in the way
and the whole damn 
thing
manages to get screwed up
again
no wonder I am not sleeping
at night
nor during the day for that matter 

good morning.

its all good. just trying to keep it all going, whether it be for the good or for the bad.

So it goes. Press on regardless.

Faithfully Yours,

Lee

Sunday, February 2, 2020

does being silent
mean that there is nothing to say
or does being silent
mean that the rest of the world 
just might not be ready to hear
what it is that you have to say
that is the question

So it goes. Press on regardless.

Faithfully Yours,

Lee

good morning,

not much to say this morning, and maybe that is a good thing, but there are times when I simply do not know where it is that I want to start, but the point right now is that the problem is not starting, it is just that there is not too much to say right at the moment, that has not already been said. sometimes I think that the best thing to say right at the moment is nothing. it is still good.

So it goes. Press on regardless.

Faithfully Yours,

Lee

good morning,

there are times when I think that I cannot get by without the wonders of modern technology. at other times I wonder why I bother. right now I think that I have fallen into the cracks and I am not sure of what to do next.

So it goes. Press on regardless.

Faithfully Yours,

Lee

Sunday, January 28, 2020

life
in life's wisdom
does what life will do
and often leaves us 
wondering
where all of the justice is
if there is such a thing as 
justice
in this world

good morning,    

I am not a basketball fan, but the death of Kobie Bryant, his thirteen-year-old daughter in that helicopter crash this morning in California is such a tragedy. what else is there left to say in all of this?
So it goes. Press on regardless.

Faithfully Yours,

Lee

Friday, January 24, 2020

life can only be as good as it gets
within the moment
if we are willing to look for it
the days and nights
filled with hope
filled with dread
filled with anything
that will keep us from thinking too much
laughter and tears are always hand in hand
which, at the moment
never seems to make any sense 
until the moment is gone
and we find ourselves doing something else
So it goes. Press on regardless.

Faithfully Yours,

Lee

www.silentscreamsandothermusings.com 

Sunday, January 19, 2020

mostly often
I find myself thinking
is this what I have been reduced to
I had such grand designs for my life
that did not include sitting in front of a laptop
in an otherwise darkened room
thinking that I am a writer
just because I can string some words together
and call it poetry